today is jason's 20th birthday! he has grown up quickly, this is craziness! it brings up so many memories of us as kids, and then it makes me wonder where life is going. what have we accomplished since those days? have we really used them to the fullest? idk about that, but there is still tons of potential for sucess in the future, this i know to be true!
i am so very proud of him and the improvements he is making in his life. however, i'm not gonna lie, today upset me alot. i wasn't able to see him for his bday, or even call him for that matter, which really sucks. i miss that boy, so much more then anyone else knows. like, u don't know what u have until it's gone. jason is no longer "here" for me, and i no longer can be there for him either, and now i miss him so much! i hope that he had a good day though, and i hope that he knows just how much we all love him. i am anxiously awaiting the day when i can call him again at my convenience, when i wish to, but until then i'm going to pray for him. i pray that things turn around. i pray that ppl stop judging him. and i pray that he can make this adjustment and transition into a better life style. i love and miss him very much!!!